Another wonderful article and so thorough. This helped me identify that the exclusionary variables are the only thing holding me back. I have been looking for a local therapist and think I may have finally located one. I really want the first visit in person. I do not know where it will lead, but I know I need it. Thanks for doing what you do. It really is a big help!
I finally saw my therapist last Friday. It was mainly intake stuff, but we did cover a little bit of the dysphoria. I see her again on Tuesday and I really do seem to click with her. Thanks for the encouragement.
Excellent work here…reminds me of the Cogiati test which had a number of multiple choice questions regarding spacial awareness, social preferences, and other assorted topics which had stereotypically male or female responses. If you answered the questions just the right way, the test would confirm that you were likely Trans, the truth being that simply going through the effort of answering the questions just the right way confirmed that you were likely Trans. But it was lovely to have the scorebot tell us as much just the same. Confirmation Kernels are a healthy part of a growing Trans diet, you know.
I know its so sappy but when I went to the 'I hope I'm trans' button and saw the message I made the biggest smile I've made for a long time, and it comes back every time I look back at it.
I've saved both a photo of myself and of the screen to look back on and remember this moment. Thank you so much for doing what you do, this has made me feel amazing and really affirmed me. And thank you for commenting on someones reddit post that led me straight here!
What is wrong with me. I want to be trans, but I don't even know why, it feels like I want to do it just because it'll be finally something interesting in my life after a long time, or because it's "popular", or because I have such kink.
And when answering these questions it felt like I was holding myself back, like I was afraid I might not be trans. I don't have dysphoria, and when I imagine that I'm suddenly changing gender, it feels scary, meaning it's an incline towards cisgender. But I don't want to be just a cisgender.
How the hell is gender hard to figure out, how do you know what you want if you never trust yourself...
I did end up reading through the entirety of it (iirc), some things did seem relatable. Also finished a few articles and read diyhrt. All the evidence seems pretty obvious but over a year from questioning I still feel unsure. But at least I'll be able to try femmoding soon
Not sure if this comment should be tagged as a "spoiler" or something. Feel free to remove it if so, but I clicked the top button. It made me cry, in the best way. Thank you! <3
Only you can know what your feelings mean. Sounds like your CNS is on high alert, and is trying to get you to pay attention. Given which article this is, I have my suspicions as to why that might be.
If I may make a suggestion, the Part One: A Webcomic article, and maybe Beneath the Surface (I'm guessing here, but in my experience it's a pretty safe guess) might give you a lot to think about.
To quote Beneath the Surface, you already know the answer to your original question, don't you? It's just scary, something you never thought might apply to you.
And that's okay. This is your life. You can do, or not do, anything you want.
Thank you for writing such an extensive article! ❤️ Although I’ve considered myself trans for almost five years now, the results of the scenarios actually aided me in giving me more confidence in the transition I’m pursuing. I’ll definitely share this one with people who are questioning their gender and who want some help getting a clearer picture on this.
This is really good. My daughter recently came out to me and this gives me a much better way of thinking about gender identity - for her and everyone else.
I've been questioning for a few months now, and reading this, i think my egg finally hatched. It had shown a few cracks, but now I'm very sure I'm trans. Thank you for making this, and I gotta go thank a redditor for indirectly getting me to go here
one thing I found quite interesting is that I was pretty terrified of the idea of being transported into a parallel universe where I'm practically a cis woman and kind of wanted to press that button pretty quickly, at least as an initial reaction, but then my heart sank when you said that this likely indicates I'm a cis man. Strengthens my belief that I'm likely genderfluid
If you're ever disappointed at someone saying you're cis, you're almost certainly not cis--that's why there was the pre-answers special button to push. 😉
reading the the text from the first button made me unresonably happy, like, probably happier than I've been at any point in the last year, maybe even the last two.
I just re-read the quiz again after recommending it to someone who is strongly questioning their identity. It brought back the emotions of my hatching week, and really reinforced the unattainability of my longing. I like my body. It's pretty damn good for a 55-year-old woman who had masculine hormones for almost 54 years. But once again I find myself aching for a feminine body.
Hormones will get me partway there. Surgery will add another step (if I can ever get it). But I'll never achieve the degree of femininity I really need to feel like *me*.
I know I'm not alone in feeling like this. But it's really hitting home again.
I have it in my calendar to contact GRS Montreal in January to check on their progress toward offering the PPV procedure. The moment I hear that their surgeon is training for it, I'm getting my doctor to put me on the waiting list.
I found your article last night after a lot of searching and questioning my gender identity and whether I’m trans, gender fluid or just not sure. I remember when I was young at my grandparents watching a ballerina and her partner and thinking, I want to be that ballerina. I cross dressed for well over a decade starting in my teens, but always kept it closeted, because I thought it was purely a sexual thing, because of the fear of societal acceptance and also because I probably didn’t even know back then what being transgender even was.
Fast forward to yesterday. Even before taking the test scenarios, as soon as I read the definition of cisgender and transgender, I kinda blurted out “I’m definitely not cisgender”. I think this may have been my egg finally cracked! I took a few minutes in my thoughts, not able to contain the smile on my face or what I think was the happiness, the euphoria that I was feeling.
I took the test. I came out as a very likely binary trans person. Even before checking the results I hit the “I hope I’m trans” button.
Thank you for helping me to realise what has been there all along but which I don’t think I’ve ever discovered so clearly as through your article. It’s all the emotions at once and I’m looking forward to what comes next!
I came into this still feeling pretty unsure but....
That 1st question hit me like a truck....I was smiling throughout the scenario and when the button was presented my first instinct was to my surprise "No! I was happy" and pushed it away from me. I was repulsed by the button. In fact I was shocked by my answer. "wait what? I was happy???"
The 2nd question I kept to the 1st option for a female body happily and didn't like the 2nd and 3rd option. I didn't really have much answer to the why except that I just preferred it more and I don't think felt any lust or envy either. Though I don't dislike my current genitalia and body, I would however prefer it to be female if my body was female.
3rd question: pretty easy this one, I would have had alot of regrets not discovering why I had those questions. If I had tried to understand them, maybe at least I would have understood more about myself.
Note: Not sure how relevant this is....but in all 3 scenarios I kinda switch between 3rd person(more instances) and 1st person POV. Sometimes I was viewing myself in that scenario and sometimes I'm in the 1st person view. I'm not really sure if this is relevant in anyway but I thought to put it here.
I have to say thanks for making this, honestly I'm still reeling from that 1st question, nvr expected I would react this strongly.
Another wonderful article and so thorough. This helped me identify that the exclusionary variables are the only thing holding me back. I have been looking for a local therapist and think I may have finally located one. I really want the first visit in person. I do not know where it will lead, but I know I need it. Thanks for doing what you do. It really is a big help!
I'm so glad! Good luck with your therapist, and if you don't click with them, don't be afraid to keep shopping for one that does!
I finally saw my therapist last Friday. It was mainly intake stuff, but we did cover a little bit of the dysphoria. I see her again on Tuesday and I really do seem to click with her. Thanks for the encouragement.
Unfortunately, they seem to be in very short supply in this area. Hopefully, it will work out. Thanks again.
Excellent work here…reminds me of the Cogiati test which had a number of multiple choice questions regarding spacial awareness, social preferences, and other assorted topics which had stereotypically male or female responses. If you answered the questions just the right way, the test would confirm that you were likely Trans, the truth being that simply going through the effort of answering the questions just the right way confirmed that you were likely Trans. But it was lovely to have the scorebot tell us as much just the same. Confirmation Kernels are a healthy part of a growing Trans diet, you know.
I know its so sappy but when I went to the 'I hope I'm trans' button and saw the message I made the biggest smile I've made for a long time, and it comes back every time I look back at it.
I've saved both a photo of myself and of the screen to look back on and remember this moment. Thank you so much for doing what you do, this has made me feel amazing and really affirmed me. And thank you for commenting on someones reddit post that led me straight here!
Congratulations, hun!
What is wrong with me. I want to be trans, but I don't even know why, it feels like I want to do it just because it'll be finally something interesting in my life after a long time, or because it's "popular", or because I have such kink.
And when answering these questions it felt like I was holding myself back, like I was afraid I might not be trans. I don't have dysphoria, and when I imagine that I'm suddenly changing gender, it feels scary, meaning it's an incline towards cisgender. But I don't want to be just a cisgender.
How the hell is gender hard to figure out, how do you know what you want if you never trust yourself...
There is no why, hun. If you want to be trans, if you're afraid you're not trans--those are expressions of desire, and that's pretty clear-cut.
And maybe have a read of genderdysphoria.fyi. It might be surprising.
Seriously, if you want to be trans, you just *can*. You're allowed.
I did end up reading through the entirety of it (iirc), some things did seem relatable. Also finished a few articles and read diyhrt. All the evidence seems pretty obvious but over a year from questioning I still feel unsure. But at least I'll be able to try femmoding soon
Not sure if this comment should be tagged as a "spoiler" or something. Feel free to remove it if so, but I clicked the top button. It made me cry, in the best way. Thank you! <3
Awww, thank you!
And congratulations, hun. 💙💗🤍💗💙
Can't do words... Thanks! <3
You're the one who did all the work, Sofia.
My head is spinning. Heart is pounding. Hands cold and a bit aroused at the same time. WTF?
Only you can know what your feelings mean. Sounds like your CNS is on high alert, and is trying to get you to pay attention. Given which article this is, I have my suspicions as to why that might be.
If I may make a suggestion, the Part One: A Webcomic article, and maybe Beneath the Surface (I'm guessing here, but in my experience it's a pretty safe guess) might give you a lot to think about.
What makes you think I haven't already? Grrrr. How dare you. But I will again as if I don't have a lot to think about already. ; )~
I didn't want to presume. 🤭
To quote Beneath the Surface, you already know the answer to your original question, don't you? It's just scary, something you never thought might apply to you.
And that's okay. This is your life. You can do, or not do, anything you want.
Thank you for writing such an extensive article! ❤️ Although I’ve considered myself trans for almost five years now, the results of the scenarios actually aided me in giving me more confidence in the transition I’m pursuing. I’ll definitely share this one with people who are questioning their gender and who want some help getting a clearer picture on this.
I'm glad!
Made crystal clear what I knew already!
This is really good. My daughter recently came out to me and this gives me a much better way of thinking about gender identity - for her and everyone else.
I'm really glad that it could help you understand her perspective better!
I've been questioning for a few months now, and reading this, i think my egg finally hatched. It had shown a few cracks, but now I'm very sure I'm trans. Thank you for making this, and I gotta go thank a redditor for indirectly getting me to go here
I'm really glad, Avery! Congratulations!
one thing I found quite interesting is that I was pretty terrified of the idea of being transported into a parallel universe where I'm practically a cis woman and kind of wanted to press that button pretty quickly, at least as an initial reaction, but then my heart sank when you said that this likely indicates I'm a cis man. Strengthens my belief that I'm likely genderfluid
If you're ever disappointed at someone saying you're cis, you're almost certainly not cis--that's why there was the pre-answers special button to push. 😉
reading the the text from the first button made me unresonably happy, like, probably happier than I've been at any point in the last year, maybe even the last two.
Congratulations, then, hun. And welcome to a wider world. 💜🏳️⚧️💜
Excellent writing once again. You really have a lot to give from your exhaustive knowledge base.
I just re-read the quiz again after recommending it to someone who is strongly questioning their identity. It brought back the emotions of my hatching week, and really reinforced the unattainability of my longing. I like my body. It's pretty damn good for a 55-year-old woman who had masculine hormones for almost 54 years. But once again I find myself aching for a feminine body.
Hormones will get me partway there. Surgery will add another step (if I can ever get it). But I'll never achieve the degree of femininity I really need to feel like *me*.
I know I'm not alone in feeling like this. But it's really hitting home again.
Ohh, Violet. I hope you can, because it's more attainable than most folks think--especially when dysphoria is roaring.
I have it in my calendar to contact GRS Montreal in January to check on their progress toward offering the PPV procedure. The moment I hear that their surgeon is training for it, I'm getting my doctor to put me on the waiting list.
That's wonderful to hear!
I found your article last night after a lot of searching and questioning my gender identity and whether I’m trans, gender fluid or just not sure. I remember when I was young at my grandparents watching a ballerina and her partner and thinking, I want to be that ballerina. I cross dressed for well over a decade starting in my teens, but always kept it closeted, because I thought it was purely a sexual thing, because of the fear of societal acceptance and also because I probably didn’t even know back then what being transgender even was.
Fast forward to yesterday. Even before taking the test scenarios, as soon as I read the definition of cisgender and transgender, I kinda blurted out “I’m definitely not cisgender”. I think this may have been my egg finally cracked! I took a few minutes in my thoughts, not able to contain the smile on my face or what I think was the happiness, the euphoria that I was feeling.
I took the test. I came out as a very likely binary trans person. Even before checking the results I hit the “I hope I’m trans” button.
Thank you for helping me to realise what has been there all along but which I don’t think I’ve ever discovered so clearly as through your article. It’s all the emotions at once and I’m looking forward to what comes next!
Congratulations, Sophie! That's so wonderful to hear!!
this was really helpful thank you..... just thinking about the third scenario made me cry
I'm very glad, and congratulations. 💜
I came into this still feeling pretty unsure but....
That 1st question hit me like a truck....I was smiling throughout the scenario and when the button was presented my first instinct was to my surprise "No! I was happy" and pushed it away from me. I was repulsed by the button. In fact I was shocked by my answer. "wait what? I was happy???"
The 2nd question I kept to the 1st option for a female body happily and didn't like the 2nd and 3rd option. I didn't really have much answer to the why except that I just preferred it more and I don't think felt any lust or envy either. Though I don't dislike my current genitalia and body, I would however prefer it to be female if my body was female.
3rd question: pretty easy this one, I would have had alot of regrets not discovering why I had those questions. If I had tried to understand them, maybe at least I would have understood more about myself.
Note: Not sure how relevant this is....but in all 3 scenarios I kinda switch between 3rd person(more instances) and 1st person POV. Sometimes I was viewing myself in that scenario and sometimes I'm in the 1st person view. I'm not really sure if this is relevant in anyway but I thought to put it here.
I have to say thanks for making this, honestly I'm still reeling from that 1st question, nvr expected I would react this strongly.
Congratulations on your findings!