I spent a lot of time grieving how my life might have been better of I had been born 20 years later (which would have been 2004), which is funny because I used to wish I'd been born 30 years earlier. Talk about using your parents as an identity shield from gender questions... But I've also gone through and tried to find an earlier time that I could have cracked my egg, and there just isn't one. I've also thanked my younger and even young child self for getting me here, it was powerful.
it's very bittersweet to spend so much time in therapy discussing the possibility of an information paradox that began my transition (i saw a beautiful version of future-me in the mirror) and see so much of that reflected so wonderfully in your story. i love this so much, thank you. 💕
"Making peace with the lost time." I hear that. Where I'm focusing now is figuring out how to solidify everything and get my process rolling so I don't lose more future time than I have to.
Even still, I can't help but hate how long I waited. It was objectively the best thing for me, but I doubt l'll finish healing from it before I die. Ugh, this made me cry.
Heya Doc, I followed you here from the fallen Bird app. This is a powerful story, and the post script doubly so. I've had the conversation with a friend on Discord about what would have happened if I'd tried to transition when I was younger (I'm 55, started HRT this year). There's no way I could have transitioned any earlier in my life. This strikes a chord. I *feel* this. thanks for sharing!
Dammit, Zoe! You've made me cry again! 💜
I apologize for nothing. 💅
I spent a lot of time grieving how my life might have been better of I had been born 20 years later (which would have been 2004), which is funny because I used to wish I'd been born 30 years earlier. Talk about using your parents as an identity shield from gender questions... But I've also gone through and tried to find an earlier time that I could have cracked my egg, and there just isn't one. I've also thanked my younger and even young child self for getting me here, it was powerful.
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This post helped me just how much hurt I still have to work through. Thank you
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it's very bittersweet to spend so much time in therapy discussing the possibility of an information paradox that began my transition (i saw a beautiful version of future-me in the mirror) and see so much of that reflected so wonderfully in your story. i love this so much, thank you. 💕
"Making peace with the lost time." I hear that. Where I'm focusing now is figuring out how to solidify everything and get my process rolling so I don't lose more future time than I have to.
Even still, I can't help but hate how long I waited. It was objectively the best thing for me, but I doubt l'll finish healing from it before I die. Ugh, this made me cry.
You can make it. Promise.
Thank you ;_;
Hey, I'm just glad someone liked it. Not many people read the - Tenses, and they're very precious to me.
Heya Doc, I followed you here from the fallen Bird app. This is a powerful story, and the post script doubly so. I've had the conversation with a friend on Discord about what would have happened if I'd tried to transition when I was younger (I'm 55, started HRT this year). There's no way I could have transitioned any earlier in my life. This strikes a chord. I *feel* this. thanks for sharing!
Thank you so much 💕