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Violet's avatar

Thank you for this. I'm still a new chick, but I've already noticed subtle shifts in how I feel about my future, so I've adopted the attitude that things will change in ways I can't anticipate. It worries me a little because if I'm experiencing significant back and forth and up and down already, how much of a basket case will I be when I start HRT?

It helps to have the perspective that I'm uncovering layers that have been covered by my outer state of dysphoria, that I'm not playing whack-a-mole with insecurities that pop up randomly with no underlying pattern. Like my face dysphoria on the weekend, which I wrote about. It was suddenly stronger than it had been before, but it wasn't new.

Using a map analogy, I've picked out the cities I plan to visit on the way to my new home, but I expect detours along the way. And as I approach each waypoint, I might see another city I'd rather visit. At this point I think Facetown might be the first industrial city I visit after a long drive along the Hormone Coast, but who knows? Right now, I see an adventure laid out before me. I'm sure I don't appreciate how big some of the potholes will be.

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Trinity's avatar

I consider myself fortunate. Much of the dysphoria I suffer has to do with facial and body hair. I was able to start HRT in May, that helped. Waxing has helped, electrolysis has helped, we suffer for beauty, right? I expect there to be more. I work on what I can, remain patient, and see what comes next.

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